End of Course

Hmm i shld have said this on monday but i'm juz plan lazy n tired la.. Anyway YEAH YEAH YEAH.. Finally i completed mine dip liao hahaha.. 1yr 3mths... omg.. I can't believe I actually survive it.. Hmm but this time on the v last day, by right it shld call 4 a celebration but since we din have any lesson, every1 juz take their own sweet time n hand in their assignment then we all went hm.. hmm seems kind of weird when we always go drink n celebrate aft our exam but this time round hai.. hahahaha

Hmm now juz have to wait 4 my result (which no1 know when will it b). Sometimes i really regretted studying there, as the system there is so mess up that it dun really look like a school.. But i get to know a bunch of fun n"loving" people (which is my classmates). Guess this is wat we always said, u lose some, u gain some lol.. Hope tat we r able to meet up again to go drinking coz i really miss the fun time we have.. It reminds me of my secondary school times

Hmm as 4 wat plans do i have.. well.. a... Not at e very moment la.. I'm still waiting 4 my results then after that I will have to make plans..

OOo lastly happy 25th birthday to cynthia whose birthday was on tuesday n a pic of e winnie e poohs that she give me, thanks... OO n siew fun better dun b too jealous when she see e 3 winnie e poohs. She may have pics of winnie e pooh but i got 3 cute soft toy of them hahaha














N b4 i log off.. I 1 2 go watch "click"... omg its thursday liao dun think they have it... Finally i got time 2 go watch a movie liao but can't find ppl to go hahahaha..

Decision

Dun tell me not to treat u good coz i can't. Dun said u dun deserve it coz i wun believe. Let me do e things i 1 for u n to u. Juz let me b e silly me even tot i listen to u talking abt him, i will still b happy.

I admit sometimes it tough to ignore my feeling but i b smiling when i know hw happy u r even tot e things/person to make u happy is not me. Actually I was smiling n felt really happy 4 u last night when u told me abt him n ur feelings. I know tat was e moment where u face ur own feeling n let it out altot it wasn't me who u feel happy abt but i'm still glad tat i can b there 4 u when u need some1 to talk to.

My worries will always b there when i know things dun work out 4 u or when u r having a bad day. I dunno hw to make u feel better but all i can do is juz sit here (few km away from u) n b worry 4 u e whole day till i know u r better.

When u r out w us, I always e 1 w e least words or talk e least coz i'm listening to u. I like it when u r doing something n all i do is juz look at u in silent.

I dunno hw long will i b able to do all these but 4 now juz let me b e silly me. I know u might not like it n feels tat it's a waste of time but to me it's all worth it. I have fall deeply 4 u to e extend of more than my liking 4 u.. Alittle more n i will said u r the 3th woman in my life that i love the most...

Feelings

Feeling worry, jealous, anxious? For so long, I tot that i wun b affect by these feeling but i guess i was really wrong, so wrong that i was also surprise that when "they" start to crawl back into me aft so long, i realise that I'm juz like e average man out there.

"I haven been so worry 4 some1 for a v long time already n i almost forgot hw it feels like", this is wat i told her the other day. Becoz of her, I felt alot of things that I haven felt 4 a super ultra long time n also bcoz of her, i realise that I have been expressing my feeling n letting them know to her more than any1 else.

Nic n i was talking abt it last night n he said" well, it does feel good when u worry 4 some1 coz it make ur heart works", which is quite truth.

Falling 4 u might not b a wise choice to others or even to u; There r things which u may feel tat r more important then my feelings for u but all of these doesn't really matter to me. How things between us will change i dun really know but i promise u tat i b there 4 u n do my best to bring e smile back if u were ever to lose it.