Relationship

"Do u really love catherine tat much?" A question zz ask me over sms ytd.. Surprise at e question.. But still i gave her a direct answer without thinking "Yes, v much.." If this was me a few mths or yrs back, I would not have think in such a way coz e r/s is only 10days long.. To most ppl, its too early to tell. Too early to decide.. I agree but only if i was e old me.. In n out of a few r/s, I have nvr feel so certain, so sure, so confidence of my feelings.. Be it what i said in e past or wat i blog.. I was always happy when i was attach but this r/s.. Its so different.. It make me think and plan for the future even tot we both know tat the big problem might cause us to break off..

Every r/s has it high n low, juz like in life we have our ups n downs.. Been together w her was e high point in e r/s but ytd, it was e lowest point e 2 of us ever get too.. I admit, beening in this r/s sometimes can make us feel v tired be it mentally or physcially.. But giving up has nvr been on my mind.. I believe tat everything happen 4 a reason.. Mayb y all these happen now is a test for us.. To allow us learn n handle the low in this r/s and if we can get over it, we all appreciate the high even more n not take it for granted.. It was only ytd then i truthly realised tat to have a high point in e r/s is not easy, it take alot of time n effort from both parties and with a handfull of problems in hand, it only make things worst.. but on e other hand, a low point can b reach in a min or even less.. Juz bcoz of this 1 low point, it can break up 2 person, cause ppl to make decision tat they regretted and even leave a "scar.."

Recovering from a low this point is nt easy.. For some, they nvr recover, for some they take days or even weeks or mths.. I believe if 2 person are willing to forgive n forgot as well as try to make things work again, then nothing is impossible..

A 4 sms long msg early in e morning.. If i ever 1 2 give up on this r/s i wun even bother 2 send an sms this long.. 15mins.. tats hw long i took 2 think n type this sms.. I really 1 2 walk 2 e end of e road w u.. I stand by all these words tat i said.. even if 1 day we can't b together, e only memory tat i would not 1 is e last day of our r/s.. I 1 us to have such a good memories tat we can tell others, its a r/s tat i wun forgot coz we had so many good memories of it..

Worry

hmm dunno hw to said.. I know u r worry and i know u wish to know wat happen.. I know by telling u dun worry is pointless juz like when u r sick u tell me not to worry.. I know i'm been selfish by not telling you wat happen last night.. All i can said is sorry..

From nw on, i promise 2 let u know.. As for wat happen last night.. i will tell u but not now..

Surprise Surprise Surprise

ok i know I blog once today already.. but this.. This i really need to blog.. To let those of u who is reading this blog know..

She actually blog abt me on her blog.. heehee.. I know to some of u its like no big deal but she dun blog on her bf n by right none of her friends know abt us.. I dun really mind abt all these n i mean it.. Tats y when i saw her talking abt me on her blog i was so so speechless.. So so happy..

I know its something v big to her.. its something she nvr do b4.. Thanks alot my dear.. No way would i even think tat u would do something like tat..

N lastly dear, take ur time in this r/s.. I know abt ur stress and pressure so take it easy n things will be fine.

Another Long Night?

hmm 3am in the morning.. yes tats e time i slept last night.. Well its not bcoz I'm sleepless or bcoz of the weather.. Its bcoz i was chatting w my gf.. (I'm not complaining tot) 2 more hrs and we would have chat for a quarter of a day.. 4hrs was hw long we chat.. I still can't believe it.. I think zz will call me heartless again.. hahaha..

On this v night, not only was i so surprise by wat u said but u really make me speechless a few time.. Nvr in my life have i feel so much in a night.. I was really over the moon when I heard your feelings for me.. Frankly speaking I din know tat in abt a week you can feel so much for me.. Since the day when u said u doubt me, i was thinking to myself tat it wun b easy to clear all those doubt.. I was really afraid tat this doubt would cause u 2 leave me...

I couldn't help myself but juz keep smiling when i heard wat u said.. I always said i nvr regret been in this r/s w u nor make all those decisions tat i made n ytd u not only make me believe so strongly in my decision u also give me a new chapter to my life, my love life...

Its a chapter so different from all my ex's.. So different from any1 i have feelings for.. waking up n on e way to work till now blogging at work.. I still can forget wat u told me last night.. I admit tat is only a week like wat most of my friends said, I'm really so in love.. Thanks my dear.. Its a relationship that i know i will not have any regret no matte wat happen as long as u are there

First Paper

Finally, first paper is over.. I would 1 2 said today e classroom was e coldest room i ever seat in.. n i swear i really need winter clothes.. Hmm study quite alot for the past 24hrs but the topic tat i remember e most din come up.. To think e lecturer make us read so much.. Well not really e whole text but selective topic.. But still some of them din even come up lor..
Hmm up coming another 1 on next mon n fri.. Hai.. Tat fri 1 i really dun have much time to study..

Went to watch "taken" w dear aft paper today, hmm sometime alone n relieve some stress for her coz she keep feeling tat she will get a "D"for this paper n she do v badly.. Been trying to as her to be positive abit but i know its almost impossible la.. I know tat kind of feeling..

Hmm.. Like i said e other day, when its over dun think too much abt it coz there are other paper which u need to attempt.. Juz focus on the other papers and study for them earlier so when u r taking them u wun have e same feeling again.. Juz hope tat u will b fine by tmr coz i really dun wish to c e moody u n thid moody feeling affect ur next paper.. Dun worry, no matter wat I will b there for you n like u always said, god will b there for u too..

Hope tat when u call me later, u will be fine provided u call be n did not fall asleep..

Touched N Surprise

I was rather surprised tat u wanted to come over my house today knowing my mum is at home.. Came online last night juz 2 read my blog b4 u sleep even tot u can do it on another day esp when u r so tired.. I know you did all these is not juz to make me happy but rather it's things u really feel like doing.. I really appreciate wat u did and be it how little or big e effort is, i will remember..

When u said abt things will change aft ur mission trip, how much peace u found today aft the training.. I can only said, I sense something wasn't right aft u reach home from your training.. June 16th, the day where u will leave for 6days for your mission trip in cambodia.. I will pray that nothing will change and even there is a change it will change for the better and not the worst for us..

For now, juz remember wat i said, I 1 the next mth plus to be something tat u can remember and be happy abt rather than live it as a forgotten n unhappy memories.. Whether will there b any happy memories between the 2 of us aft ur trip, we will deal it aft u come back home..

Remember dun ask me not 2 treat u nice coz I can't.. Miss u n loving u is part of my life now, i hope that it will b part of me forever..

Decided

Hmm b4 i talk abt wat is on my mind.. Juz 1 2 said, i saw ur blog juz now.. yes i made e card myself.. I dun need u 2 reply or do anything.. Juz like wat u said, i guess we no longer know hw 2 communicate w each other anymore.. Glad tat u n dan r putting effort 2 make things work out.. All the best n i guess mayb as time pass we would b each other past memory.. Nothing more..

Hmm mon is first exam paper but till now i haven study much.. Yes yes.. I will go study later.. late at night.. 26 april.. We been together 4 6days already.. I really 1 2 said Catherine My dear, I really Love You.. I know u forbid me to said this word so i type it out here. heehee.. As days n time passed, i realised tat i miss u more n more.. I haven chat or dun chat w any1 on e phone for 2-3hrs long.. with u i really wish tat i dun have to hang up e phone..

We talk abt me not been a christian n how much I love u as compare to u.. How this r/s will end if i'm nt a christian n how important it is to u.. I know abt all these all along.. I'm not stupid or dumb.. I dun talk abt it doesn't mean i dunno.. Even b4 we start or get 2 know each other so well, i know tat me nt been a christian will affect e r/s..

At e back of my head, I know tat this r/s will not last nor will we be able to walk down path of marriage together.. I nvr doubt my feelings 4 u not even once.. But like u said there is no other solution to it unless I am a christian.. n u know tat i will not.. I love u but been a christian mean a different thing.. I always feel tat i'm a free thinker n its hard for 4 me 2 juz believe in jesus.. U said tat if 1 day there is some1 nice n better then go 4 it.. I will tell u NO.. From the day we r together I have decided tat u r e 1.. The 1 who i 1 2 settle dw with.. I wun take any interest in any1 anymore.. As stupid as it may sound but its e truth even tot i know how this r/s will end.. I will only said, if u ever saw some1 u like n is a christian then go 4 it.. Coz this time its better tat u break my heart.. I wun b able 2 break yours..

No matter hw tough this road will b, i will carry on walking till e day u found some1 new or decided nt 2 carry on walking w me.. Its something I decided..

Frank

Saw your blog.. I do not know if u are talking abt me but i got a feeling u r.. I guess nothing i said can clear ur doubt abt me n there is no point 4 me to explain.. Everything happen 4 a reason so i juz hope tat someday u will understand.. Guess e phrase "Fated to know each other but nt fated 2 b together" suit us alot..

What happen i have already put it behind me.. Wat remain are only good memories.. Learn to trust ppl n trust wat other said.. Having a strong n happy r/s tat last is nt an easy task.. All e best to u n him.

Wat i have blogged i wun take back, i stand by those words no matter wat happen coz everything i blog abt my feelings n thinkings comes at e moment n deep from my heart.. Be it to who the entry is for its always something truth..

Phone Chat

Hmm hw many ppl have talk to me 4 more than 1hr on e phone b4? lol.. I guess not much of my friends especially for these past few yrs..

3hrs plus.. From my hp to my house phone.. From my bedroom to kitchen.. I haven talk so much to some1 for so so long.. We talk alot.. really alot.. To the extend i feel tat I'm giving her too much pressure n stress by telling her how i feel abt her.. Too detail.. Too in-depth.. But I know i wun regret coz its my truth feelings n i really 1 her to know..

Even like u said this r/s will nt last, it will not b till e day we get marry.. I know tat i will nt juz let u go.. Not this time.. I made a choice.. A choice i wun regret.. Tat is 2 start a r/s w u n to make e choice of having u as my last..

This 3hrs plus phone conversation really allow me 2 understand u more.. I hope it also help u 2 understand me more and know clearly hw important u r 2 me in my heart n life..

Guess tats all i can type.. eyes too small 2 stay open liao..

2 days only?

Seriously I din know its only 2 days into this r/s.. I tot it was like 4-5days heehee.. Gg into a r/s b4 our upcoming exam is a risk.. But gg into this r/s is something i din even expect nor do i think she expected it..

I would said this r/s is so different from wat i used to have.. There is quite a few things we have to get used to and at e same time we have to "test water" to try to know each other better. All these isn't easy w work, study and upcoming exam.. But I'm sure we can learn to adpat and overcome..

Aft talking to cynthia n zz ytd, I know wat are e concerns of u all but I can tell u that I dun plan to give up on this.. If i wanted to then i wun even 1 2 start anything in the first considering the very first problem we know abt b4 we even talk abt each other feelings.. The main problem and issuse will be there but I'm sure we or rather i can find ways to over it.. Deep inside i knw tat its her tat i 1 and really i would love to walk dw then end of e path w her..

lets hope from now onwards every entry abt me n her will be a happy n exciting entry n not any sad or disappointed 1..

Rotting @ Work

So bored at work.. Nothing much 2 do since i submit e punch card up to main office.. Yawn.. Hmm when 5pm came, i need 2 do some clearance for some1 but was too lazy.. Plan to leave it till tmr if not i b too free tmr..

I miss you.. Not bcoz i'm bored coz i really miss even when i'm chatting w u on msn.. 15mins more to go then off i go.. Yeah.. Finally i can get 2 c u..

April 21st 09

A day to remember.. A barrier to overcome.. The road might not b a smooth 1 but nothing in life is smooth.. Its juz a matter of overcoming and take e positive out of it..

Last Day..

April 18th 2009.. My very last day at The Sentosa Resort & Spa.. I been working there for 1yr 1mth n 8days.. If i add in tmr off day i b there for 9 days.. heehee.. Not many ppl know its my last day today.. So i bet if i go back n do clearance on mon, i sure kena from a few of them 1.. heehee..

Almost all pavilion n poolside staffs know today is my last day but poolside staffs only know abt it today.. E same goes to garden staffs.. I only manage to c chef jasmine today n i guess i really surprise her..

To those who din know.. Its a v rush decision for me.. I received a call on monday n was ask 2 go 4 e interview in e aftnoon.. Then i was "offered" the job of a HR assistant but they can't wait 4 my 1 mth notice.. I was to make a decision between take up e offer n pay back e hotel or give up e opportunity.. Aft allowing 2 consider 4 a day, i told decide to take up e offer.. Talk to florence (HR manager) n Liliane (my manager) abt it on wed.. Liliane actually wanted me 2 at least give her 2 weeks but the other company can't wait tat long.. So I decided tat i will start work over at their side on monday..

So there it is.. My v last day of work today.. I nvr quit my job in such a hurry b4 nor have i kept it so well like this time.. But i juz dun 1 ppl 2 come n ask me questions like y u quit? so where u gg to work? bla bla bla.. I guess i will only answer those questions to certain ppl n my close friends..

Almost cry today.. But i held back... Was on e shuttle bus up to hotel n out.. I wun said its last look coz i b back on mon to do clearance but so many things happen there.. The happy times i had w garden kitchen staff, e food they cook for me.. I nvr been so close 2 kitchen staff b4.. The hot n tiring working hours at pavilion.. E "argue" i always had w linda n jessie till every1.. yes even my manager also can't stand us.. hahaha.. She even threaten to give us warning letter juz to prevent us from talking.. hahaha.. This place also give me alot of other good memories.. It also make me know hw stupid i was in alot of decision I make.. I least I know i did not regret working here coz at least for some period of my time in my life i could look forward to walking pass the lobby n turn my head to look for a sweet n super happy smile tat will make my day..

Been working in this line 4 too long.. Part-time n full-time.. At this v age I'm doing a career switch.. I hope its not too late.. I still have passion for service line but I told myself i must earn more.. Working in this line can't bring to wat i 1.. but it has taught me alot of things.. Alot of knowledge tat i dare to said I can b better than some assistant managers or managers out there but e only thing is lack of experience in my resume.. I wun forget wat I've learn n all e hardwork i put in.. Really gg to b a new chapter of my life..

Muffins!!!

Meet up w nic aft work.. Then charlie called to said she made muffins.. So he took e car n drove me to charlie house n have muffin for my dinner.. Nice nice muffins.. 4 muffins + 1 glass of plain water ( i requested this) Hmm.. really make me feel v full.. at least its super nice dinner aft a long day at work..

Night Shift..

Haven been working night shift 4 at least 2mths liao.. Most ppl who knew was so surprise when they c me in e red "angbao" uniform.. Hmm guess its a good thing to work night once in a while.. Wanted to take some pic of e hotel so tat i can post hw it look like at night but too bad i din bring my camera n hp sucks at taking night shot.. I guess all these can only stay in my memory from now on..

Affected

I tot i wun b affect if i saw u.. Lol.. hw wrong I was.. I guess u saw me too n knew tat i purposely board e bus using e alight door.. Call me timid, coward watever.. I can't walk pass u or stand there n smile at u like normal.. Juz tat glance of u bring back all the feelings tat i been trying to keep 4 days..

Been a long long time since i got so affect by some1 tat i can't even eat.. There is so much tat i wanted to said but i know nt at tat moment n tat place.. I just have to keep a distance 4 nw.. Tats e only way i can control myself..

Thanks Alot My Dear Friends

Something I wanted to blog aft my lunch w zz.. I better blog it now since I'm slacking at vivo coffeebean b4 i start work later..

I dunno abt nic but i guess i really give zz and cynthia a shock for wat happen in t past 1 week.. I know i haven been myself and you guys got to put up w the crazy side of me.. I really appreciated for all your care and concern.

Thanks nic for making time to keep my company n listen to me moan n moan like a little kid. Thanks zz for making my day by writing on the postcard and spending so much of your times to listen to me cry, moan, nag and also for giving me all e support. I know u been calling heartless but i juz why this time its must more hurtful and pain compare 2 e time we broke off.. Mayb like i said b4, u n i were a couple b4 but this time round i almost had it but i let it slip past me..

Thanks cynthia despite her busy schedule and no show on last mon (heehee), she still manage to find time to sms me n talk to me on msn juz to check hw I'm coping.. Dun worry no1 will blame u.. Work is something no1 can control..

I know i been unfair to you guys for telling u all wat happen only nw esp to nic n cynthia where i told u guys aft everything is over.. I juz hope u guys will understand tat I really wanted to handle things myself this time coz u all can't always b there 4 me.. I might have regret wat i did but i nvr regret knowing e 3 of u.. I do not know wat you all will think but been e first 3 person in my life in group of friends n colleagues 2 know wat happen mean alot of me.. You 3 will have a special place in my heart and no matter wat happen to us, I 1 us to keep in contact always n stay close for as long as possible..

Dinner at Aston

Hmm too bad cynthia nvr go if not nic would have 2 give me $5.. Hai.. There goes my $5.. Anyway thanks nic and zz for spending time w me and suan me today.. heehee.. Dun worry, I b fine..

Juz 1 2 post wat nic told us today.. E story goes like tat..
Zz:" Fred, u sure u 28 this yr? I still feel tat u look younger than tat"
Me: "O really? Mayb tats e reason y i dun have a gf"
Nic n Zz: "wah liao... you still dare say."
Nic: "People have gf is like fill up the warranty card and send; You leh... keep the warranty card until void liao then want to send."

He also said nt all warranty card shld b fill, some of them i shld nt even touch it..

Tat was e funniest thing he ever said e whole dam day.. Hahaha.. Something we all can use e next time round..

O i almost forgot.. Thanks zz for the postcards.. I did smile n laugh when i was reading it.. So dun said i no feelings 1..

My biggest Regret..

Juz saw ur blog.. I guess taking ur for granted cause me to b so unsure of my feelings.. By the time i realise how much I love you, you are gone.. You are e second person in my life to make me so comfortable been w u and having so much memories of you.. Like u said it was a perfect or shld i put it almost perfect relationship till I destory it w my own hand.. I'm glad that you dun hate me but i know u can't accept the things tat i did..

I know nothing i do can change anything.. I juz hope someday we can b back as friends.. Like i said in my pervious post.. All i can ever say to u is sorry 4 making u go through so much... Now there is nothing much i can do.. Its sadden me when I realise tat u r feeling happy but I'm nt e 1 who is giving u when i got e chance..

I really wish u all e best.. If someday u ever feel tat u can b friends w me again, u know hw to find me.. Take care..

Give up

Do i have to give up? Do i have a choice? I dun think so.. Coz u already hate me so much.. I guess e only think i can wish 4 is 2 go back 2 e days where we juz know each other.. Friends.. nothing much.. I dunno hw much u like him.. But i will not compare nor said anything.. As long as u r happy then i be glad.. I really wish tat ur hate 4 me will not last long.. Hope tat we can talk as friends.. I dunno wat e future lies.. I guess even if we r friends i wun b able to go out w u n ur bf.. Nor r we able to go out alone as friends.. E only way we will b is mayb chat on msn when u online n sms u.. I know for sure i cannot face u 2 been so loving infront of me no matter hw long this matter has pass.. I will wait.. N if someday u decided to settle dw w either him or some1 else.. I really hope i will know..

Back to work..

Aft wat happen.. Its back to work today.. I tot by keeping myself busy i will b better.. I was wrong.. v wrong( like always) Tears formed when i reach harbour front mrt station n when i board e shuttle bus to e hotel.. Gg back remind me of u.. The hotel.. E place where i know u, c u almost everyday, e way u smile whenever u saw me walk past and tat voice of urs.. For the past few weeks, everytime i walk past the FO counter my head will juz turn.. Looking 4 u.. N whenever i dun get 2 c u, my heart jus sink..

Today u work night shift.. I been wondering e whole day.. Do u still hate me? Can we still b friends? But how? I really miss u n whenever i think abt u n him i feel stupid.. Really stupid.. I dunno if u will totally ignore me when u c me or juz smile at me? But i doubt u will forgive me..

Its sunday today.. Every sun i would receive ur sms on ur schedule 4 next week.. But as of today, tat will nvr happen..Today i saw my schedule.. Mon tue off, wed to fri 8-5, sat 10-7 n sun clear my ph.. i wanted to sms u this.. But then i ask myself.. wat will u said? do u even care? I guess u will juz delete tat sms.. Juz like i wanted to sms u good morning.. hai..

On e way walking back hm, i stopped.. Recalling so many things tat happen.. I juz feel like dying.. Go kill myself or get knock dw by a car.. Silly? Stupid? I dun think so.. waiting 4 some1 is a v torturing thing n i make u waited 4 so long.. Too long in fact.. By e time i realise hw important u r to me, u r gone. Gone 4 good..

Juz saw ur blog.. "10th april is a happy day".. If u truthly love him n is happier w him then all I can do is b happy 4 u.. This day is a day i will remember e rest of my life... 10th march 08.. The day i join this hotel.. E v place i know u.. 10th dec my birthday.. Guess every birthday it will juz remind me of wat happen.. 1 mth ago we were still meeting up, gg out.. 1 mth later things change.. To e extend tat its almost like a free fall 4 me.. Since wat happened ytd.. I been asking myself.. If only i can go back time.. Juz this once.. I will 1 2 go back to tue.. E v last day where i went out w u.. I would knee dw n ask u 2 b my gf..

There are so many sorry 2 said to u.. E only thing i can said now.. But i doubt u care.. Xindai if u ever read this post.. All i 1 2 said is losing u was e biggest regret in my life till now.. I'm sorry for making u wait 4 so many mths.. Sorry 4 making u leave starbucks alone when my classmates were abt to arrive.. Sorry for cancelling e appointment w u n meet up w my friends instead.. Sorry for ignoring u when u r online.. Sorry to make u cry so many times.. Sorry sorry sorry.. Aft all e sacrifice that u have made for me ( more than any1 has) I still disappoint u..

Hurts

I tot i can pack it up n walk away.. Leaving it as a good memory.. I can't.. I really can't.. N i always tot.. Its this thinking that is e cause of everything.. I have nvr felt this b4.. Nvr.. You are the first.. I have nvr wanted some1 so much.. So much so tat I really take u for granted..

Too much pain? It juz cannot b compare to wat u been through.. All i can ever said is sorry.. I'm truthly very sorry.. I tot i can b selfish this time round n was hoping things would change.. Well things change.. But nt in e way tat i wanted..

While waiting for ur reply e other day, I tot abt us.. Wat are e things i shld do 2 make up 2 u and also our future.. Yes.. For the first time I really think abt us having a future.. Nvr in my past few r/s has i think this way.. I'm always e "we take things 1 step at a time.." My friends know tat I take this kind of things v lightly coz no1 know wat the future will be.. But for the first time when i tot abt the future, I actually lose it in the present.. I remember i took e marriage quiz in fb n I was to marry at 32.. The first thing tat came 2 my mind was you.. E only 1 tat can make me change my way of thinking...

A decision; A choice

We all make decision everyday.. Be it big or small, important or not.. Watever decision we make, it will affect our life n others in a way or another.. It is also a choice. Something we have the right to choose.. Most of the things in life we always have a choice..

When things dun go according to plan or for watever the reason, we will regret it.. Something we have to live by no matter wat coz wat done cannot be undone.. Sometimes we tell others the reason, sometimes we dun.. When we dun, we juz hope that others will understand and c things in our point of view coz we know its not tat easy to explain and they will understand..

End of the day if there is really something that is beyond our control or e usual phrase "I dun have a choice" we juz hope that things will work out fine in the end.. Better than wat we expected..

Single

Was chatting w linda juz now n realised tat she went 2 a movie w a friend.. Well, I guess it right.. She meet up w another guy she know from SDU (social development unit) I know i v mean but sometimes when i tot abt this, I feel tat is she tat desperate to have a bf or in serious need of guy friends? Even so, does she have to go to sdu?

Mayb I'm juz old fashion ba.. Or rather i got enough friends b it male or female tats y i dun c e need of gg to sdu.. i guess its hard 4 me to understand ba.. Most ppl wun go 2 sdu coz like me they dun feel a need.. But do we really think this way? Or rather we feel tat gg to sdu is something we cannot accept.. Its like we lead a lonely life, do not have our own circle of friends and cannot make new friends without our daily life..

But is all these really truth? I really dunno.. I guess every1 has their own reasons n theory ba.. Something i do know is for now I dun c e need of gg to sdu.. yes i'm single but so? I guess to me knowing some 1 n falling in love is abt gg to meet up w some stranger and pray there u 2 click n there will b some chemistry between e 2 of u.. Rather I prefer the its fate 2 know e other party and b friends. Fall in love w her without I myself realising it.. In this way it make e whole process more meaningful rather than hope for something in e beginning..

WORK

Been working in this hotel 4 1yr n abt 1mth soon.. As a full-timer, well its been 2yrs and 4mths... In my whole life, from part-time till full-time.. more than 5yrs.. By now, most ppl know abt my part-time studies and every time they heard tat I am studying for a dip in HRM rather than gg 4 my degree in Hotel Management.. They will ask Y??

My answer? I 1 a 8-5 or 9-6 job, 5 or 5.5days work week job, office n bored to death job, sick and tired of F&B.. so many dam reasons.. I guess the main reason is bcoz of the low pay, long hours and worst of all, I always as myself.. Wat the point of putting in so much effort when no1 even bother or care.. My manager? Well she has her good n bad points but i will juz put her as 1 of e those manager who i dun mind working w.. I guess in this modern world or rather age.. If I were to b so unhappy w my job then i rather choose a job tat pay me more and I b unhappy abt it..

Altot i been on morning shift from 8-5 for the past few weeks, its v different from office job coz I still have to use alot of physical strength and my workplace is so dam hot tat i really sweat from e moment i start work till i reach locker.. I rather bored myself to death in a 8-5 office job at e v least i still have air-con and dun need 2 use so much physical strenght..

Been on e look out 4 jobs 4 e past few mths but e recession is so bad tat e amount of jobless ppl keep gg up n for a single vacancy, there will b a tons of ppl (more than e normal amount) applying 4 it.. For some1 like me who doesn't have HR experience.. Hai.. All i can do is juz pray..